As days went by, I finally figured it out.
I am back to the old me, okay maybe not old me.
I have finally rediscovered myself.
It only takes a single word/statement for one to alter your whole perception about them.
Some people say things to test you and I guess at times it is for the best.
My irresistible and exasperating love finally broke the camel's back.
His stupid and selfish remarks woke me up from a deep spell in which I was bound.
I never thought he would have ever uttered such words that left me wounded for days.
At the time I cursed and prayed hard that he would vanish from the face of this earth but now, not so much.
I needed to hear him talk and say the things that he did.
I needed to get hurt by his own words.
His words ended up being my salvation.
I held him in such high regards but his lack of respect for me, my feelings and even himself was so beneath I don't think I will ever view him as I did before.
He failed me in a way I never thought possible.
Currently I can't peg what relationship we have but I know I certainly don't despise as much as I thought I would.
He opened my eyes to much better things.
I learnt to appreciate and respect myself more.
With the right friends to counsel and listen to you during your lowest moment ever is the best medicine one would ask for.
I prayed hard for courage and wisdom to get over him and I can finally say am heading in the right direction.
I won't lie that at times I do feel things would have ended and I hope that maybe have worked out much better but then again may it was never really meant to be.
I am exerting my energy to more positive and meaningful things in life.
I know I deserve better and will be dammed if I let anyone stray me from my path.
No one should ever let themselves get used or abused.
I never understood when I saw women crying over men that made feel less than they were.
Having experienced the same I now can't judge.
I was in the same position and at the time didn't really know it.
With the right people to guide us and uplift us from the hole we sink ourselves in, we can get out.
Be humble and allow oneself to be assisted.
Have faith and believe that there is a God and if you accept him, He shall heal your wounded heart.
Love is patient and kind.
Let love find you.
Don't force yourself or degrade yourself to get what you think is love.
I have finally found my footing;I will work hard to the best of my abilities and enjoy it and If love finally decides to give me an opportunity I will let it take its course, naturally.